Ithaca As a Beggar

Being a beggar is so tedious.  I just want to see my wife as who I really am.  Telemachus is the only person on the entire island who knows who I am, and now I am going to be beaten before seeing my wife as her husband and not this poor man, and I am worried the plan will not succeed as planned and I, or worse, Telemachus will get badly injured.  Antinous is a very cruel person.  He did not even give me a morsel of his food, as all the other suitors gave me much more than a morsel.  I really want to get this plan over with so I may just have my life back.